Blink-182's self-titled album holds a special place in my heart. When I'm going through a rough patch, it's the album I turn to. Instead of opting for something cheerful or optimistic from other bands or musicians, there's a specific reason why I always choose this one.

The "Blink-182" or "Self-Titled" album marks the beginning of Tom-Mark-Travis's journey into maturity. Personally, I see this album as a testament to Travis's growth, both technically and in music arrangement during the production phase. The album tackles the struggles they face as adults and the lingering baggage from their childhood.

Starting with "Feeling This" and bridged by "The Fallen Interlude," it feels like riding a roller coaster with its ups and downs that aren't easy to digest. The journey from the first track to the sixteenth forces many moments from the past to resurface. It's a learning experience, ensuring I don't repeat the same mistakes and giving me stories to share with those who may have similar tales.

The honesty in this album surpasses their previous work. While the legendary "Enema Of The State" epitomizes the fun-filled journey of young adults, packed with parties, it also portrays physical and mental abuse. However, it maintains a sense of enjoyment. In this album, Tom-Mark-Travis's openness and honesty take me to a different level of heartache. It's sharper, closer to reality, more painful, and more heart-wrenching, as heard in Tom's "Obvious" or Mark's "Go."

"Stockholm Syndrome Interlude," "Stockholm Syndrome," and "Down" form a trio that leads to the peak of anguish. These three songs act as fuel, burning away the armor I wear during my inner battles. Life's choices, often difficult to make, periodically become a haunting specter. It's bitter, but it's a path that must be traversed.

Ironically, even though the album concludes with a live version of "Anthem Part Two" from one of their concerts in Chicago, it feels like a sign that their moments of togetherness, filled with foolish banter, are drawing to a close. The differences in vision and the main drive for creating albums from the perspective changed drastically in albums like "Dogs Eating Dogs," and "Neighborhoods." It's disappointing.

At the end of the day, I give myself a maximum of 7 days to 'immerse' in this material breakdown while 'enjoying' it. If it lingers beyond that, I might as well pick a different album to listen to.

Being fully aware of what I need during tough times is crucial. It means taking a break and reassessing my priorities, both physically and mentally.

Ubud, 16th September 2023